Ash Wednesday

Ok.. It is true.. Today is the first day that I have fast. Unbelievable but true. I love to eat and always had had a problem with my weight.. Because this year I want to live a different lent season I decided that I was going to start it right. And for the first time I fast. I pray a lot during the day because I had lots of temptations but I was true to God and to myself. I knew I could do it. I’m going to bed early today because night eating is the hardest for me.

I went to mass today at 11:30 with my kids and I met there with my husband. The father gave the fastes mass I’ve ever listen too. This mass was at a military base and the father say the three readings and in such a fast pace that it was hard understanding what he was saying. Thank God that I had made my readings this morning and I knew what he was taking about. The mass was over in less than 30 minutes.

My relationship with Jesus

I need to think what is my relationship with Jesus at this moment. I believe that I do have Him present during my daily activities but I do not have a prayer time where I sit and talk/listen to Him. I will enjoy a better relationship with my savior. I understand that I need quiet and peace to be able to Listen to what He needs to tell me.

I’m going to wake up earlier everyday during lent and take some time for prayer. Read the bible and learn about my atholic faith.  If I’m able to do this for the next few weeks I will be starting the process of creating a deeper relationship with Jesus Christ. In the process also I will learn more about my faith and the Catholic church.

God is here

I have decided to blog myself through Lent.. Even though lent has not yet started I’m thinking that it will be a good idea to write about my experiences through this special time of the year.  Maybe this will help me with my relationship with God and to give Him more space in my life.

Today I learn that God is always here with us and that I need to understand how much he loves me and how much he cares for me.  I also learned that God will not punish me for the times I haven’t been what He wants me to be.  He is all forgiveness and what he wants from me is to love Him.  I want to be able to live my faith to the fullest with His love, forgiveness and care I can accomplish that.  God gives us all His grace.  When we sin we disgrace Him but He still loves us even when we are sinning.

Can you believe that?  He LOVES me even though I spit on his face every time I sin.  How can His love be so pure and big.